Everybody Hurts

Monday, September 24, 2007

I've returned here once again. I keep meaning to, but life just seems to hate me this year. The past few months have been especially difficult. I've reached burnt out phase. I started this blog two and a half years ago, and in that time I've met a lot of people. I've lost some people. I've met some I wished I hadn't. The week I started this blog, I had a brand new kitten. An adorable little guy I named JJ. He was the sweetest most adorable animal I had ever seen.

Yes, I said was. JJ died a couple of weeks ago. He got sick and two days later he left us. I sat by his side with my brother and my younger cat and we watched him go. We took him to be looked at, and they said he had a bad heart and he had an artery burst. There was nothing no one could have done to save him that wouldn't lessen his quality of life considerably.

I've watched death before. It is something I don't like to see. I watched my mom die twelve years ago. JJ was a sweet little guy. He had never done anyone any wrong. I know he is in a better place now, but I miss him. JJ had become my best friend after my other cat ran off a year and a half ago. He would spend his days with me. The first night after he passed the house was so quiet. He was one of those talkers. He'd walk around meowing all the time. I miss that.

Mikey is taking it well, but we can tell he is still wondering where his buddy went. We might get another kitten, but we're waiting another month or two yet. Losing JJ was probably the most difficult event of the last couple of months. Finances and car troubles are piling up on us here too. Life just needs to stop being so difficult. I know it isn't supposed to be easy, but where does it say it needs to be this hard? The irony of this situation right now? Everybody Hurts by R.E.M. just came on my playlist. Now how is that for irony?

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