This day is usually a sad day for me. I lost my own mother several years ago. Past a decade now, and she was always a very important part of my life. I've always felt a bit cheated by having lost her so young in life. There were so many things she missed out on. She was my biggest supporter. She always stood by me, no matter what I did. We had our problems too. All mothers and daughters do. No relationship is perfect when it comes to mothers and daughters. I know in my life though I was blessed to have her as my mom. It took me a long time to admit that to myself because I allowed our problems cloud my judgment of her. She was a good woman though, and she loved me. Someday I hope I can be half the mother she was, but I'm not sure it is in my destiny to be someone's mom. There are days I just can't see myself doing that. I have enough with my cats. I know that might sound silly, but some people aren't put on this earth meant to be parents. Others are. I think I'm one of the former. To all of the mothers out there though, have a wonderful mother's day.
Blogging Your Blessings
Today is a day of many small blessings, but each are important in their own way. The first being that they finally fixed the main problem we had with our car yesterday. A week late, and there are few more things that need to be done before everything is perfect. The main problem is fixed though. The second blessing is that I was finally able to talk to a friend of mine that I hadn't really had a chance to speak the last few weeks. She was missed, and I was glad we were finally able to talk. The final blessing is this day, Easter. I will be able to spend the day with family, and we will sit down to dinner together. To all of you out there, have a very Happy Easter.
Blogging Your Blessings Sunday
I know its been a long time since I've done one of these. To be honest, I haven't felt very blessed the last month or so. Things have been difficult here on the financial front with my family. Bills keep coming in, and a lot of money keeps going out. We're dipping into the savings, and there isn't much left. We've had car problems ever since we paid two thousand just to fix it. Life is difficult around me, but for me personally things aren't too bad. I'm trying to look on the bright side of things here. That is what you have to do in times like this. Sometimes there is only one bright spot. For me today, they finally figured out what was wrong with the car yesterday. They put in a bad part, and it screwed up everything. They have ordered a new one, and they will put it in tomorrow at no charge to us. The part they put in was brand new. I'm not sure how it could be bad, but that's what they told us. At least they are fixing it. I might not participate here every week, but I'll try to get better at it. Some weeks it is harder to find a blessing than others.
Blogging Your Blessings Sunday
It's been a few weeks since I've posted one of these. I really haven't felt much blessed. I mentioned more than once already how much the time of year that just passed gets to me. Too many days strung together to remind me of things. Good memories. Sad ones. And all the types of memories in between. It's a new month now though, and as weird as this may sound I am blessed this Sunday because it is a new month. It's February. The holidays are done for another year. My birthday has passed. My mother's birthday has passed. The second anniversary of my cat running off has passed. It is now a new year, and I am blessed because time has passed. Something small, but to me it means everything.
Blogging Your Blessings 12/23
Christmas is only a couple of days away now. It doesn't truly feel like a holiday though. We're not doing very much this Christmas. Money is tight with all the car repair bills the last month. The fact of the matter though, we are together. I have my father still alive and well. He annoys me at times like no other, but he is still my dad and I love him. I have a brother living here that is a pain in the butt, but he is still family and I love him to pieces. I just want to smack him from time to time. I have this adorable cat who loves unconditionally and is the sweetest creature in the world. I have family far away that are never far from my thoughts. I have friends in far reaches of the world that I know love me and are there in an instant if they know I need me. At the end of the day, I am quite blessed.
Blogging Your Blessings 12/16
Good friendships are truly a rare friend. I'm not one that opens up quickly, and sometimes I open up too quickly and get burned by it in the end. People come and go in my life, and sometimes I walk away from people I've been friends with because things change. People change daily. Life is a journey for all of us, and if there is no change in our lives then there is no growth. I'm 31 years old, and no I'm not a perfect person. I am introvert by nature. I like keeping my own company rather than dealing with most people, but in my life I have a few people that I count on a daily basis. A few that I've known for years, while others just entered my life in the past year.
Each and every day I talk to them, and they make me laugh. They piss me off. They make me smile, and they just help me keep focused and centered on what's important in life. If I'm upset, they help me out. They give me advice and they listen to me rant and rave about life and how much it really can suck some of the time. When people get to me, and I don't understand what they have done it is these select few that I know I can turn. Good friendships are truly hard to find, and I think I've been blessed finding a few select people to call friend that I know I can trust.
Blogging Your Blessings 12/2
Here it is another month. December is upon us, and soon it'll be the start of a new year. The last few weeks have been kind of really hectic. I'm getting more busy with my writing, but I'm still not writing what I want to be writing completely. I want to write fiction. I love telling stories. I have my writing on here and for various sites, and I also have some roleplay writing that I enjoy as well. It isn't completely fiction though. I'm blessed though because I am able to write. I can share my talent with others, and they enjoy it. I know I need to make some changes in my life when it comes to my fiction. I need to actually buckle down and do something. I always say I'm going to, but then I never do. That is common problem a lot of people face. The muses are fickle, but they are there. They are just really quiet.
This time of year, it is the time when people try to make plans for next year. New Year's resolutions are always popular, but they are hardly ever followed through on. I need to try to make a resolution in regards to my writing this year, and I need to actually stick to it. My personal life is always one to throw a monkey wrench into things. The car payment for repairs is way higher than the original estimate, but we still need to pay it. We need our car back! Both men in the house are sick, and I'm just waiting for me to catch whatever germs they have and come down with a cold. When it comes right down to it though we are blessed just to be alive. That is a blessing all on its very own.
Blogging Your Blessings Sunday 11/18
This week I'm blessed because I allowed myself to take a chance. I had let a completed story, the first one I'd completed in years, sit on my hard drive for just about two years because it had been rejected. I resent it out last week, and within two days I heard back with an acceptance, the first ever for one of my fictional stories.
I didn't give up, as much as I wanted. I tried again, even though I was scared to do so. I don't deal with rejection well, but then again who does. I let rejection turn me off and retreat, and for the past couple of years I've been in retreat mode. It's something I'm working on, and I'm blessed because I tried again, and someone out there was willing enough to give me a chance.
Blogging Your Blessing Sunday 11/11
Another week has passed, and here is Sunday upon us already. Where does the week go really? This week, I've been talking a lot about my father. He is a blessing in my life. He is old, cranky and set in his ways, but I know I am very lucky to have him in my life. I know if it wasn't for him, I might not be here today. Him and my mother adopted me when I was only three months old. If they hadn't opened their home to me, I would have become a ward of the state after an incident with my birth parents. Instead, my grandparents took me in.
My mother, or in reality was my grandmother, couldn't stomach another family raising me. So she talked her husband into taking me in. I don't see them as my grandparents. I never have. They were always just mom and dad. Today is Veteran's Day here in the States, and my father fought in WWII as a marine. I often wonder if a lot of his behaviors are attributed to this. He's a great man though, and I consider myself very blessed to have him in my life to this day.
Have a great week everyone.
Blogging My Blessings 11/4
If this was a couple of months ago, I probably wouldn't have never even thought of doing a post like this. I didn't think my life was very blessed at all. I have written about things not going well here the past month, and life has taken a turn. I think its good to always recognize the good in life, and it is that good in life, no matter how small it may be that keeps me going. This week I'm blessed because I've overcome the negative in my life that last few months, and I'm still here. Stronger for it. Let's see what is in store for me this week.