452. Don't call this a comeback

Friday, March 09, 2007

It's been awhile. A long while. I won't make excuses for my long silence, and I doubt anyone that usually read this blog is still out there reading. If you are, give a shout out. I haven't updated since the day after Christmas. The last few months haven't been all that easy, and there were times I felt like I was drowning. The first few months of the years are always rough for me, and this year just hit me harder than most. The fact is it just kept hitting, and every time I picked myself up and dusted myself off I felt like something else was kicking me down. The last few days I finally feel that I've found my way to the end of a deep dark tunnel and there is some light at the end of it. For a bit there, I didn't think I would.

Things were just quite insane. I felt a bit insane. I turned thirty-one back in January, but I don't feel like I'm thirty-one. There are times I feel like I'm five. Times where I feel like I'm eighteen again, and then there are times when I feel like I'm eighty. I'm sure we have all had those moments where we feel like that. The other night I received an email from someone wanting to buy this blog from me because it had a history to it. I'm not sure if it was some joke or if the person was serious, but for the past two years this blog has been my life. I've poured so much of my heart, my time, my words and my experiences into it. This blog is me, and I could never sell it. Why would I want to?

It made me miss this blog though. I've come back here so many times over the last couple of months, and I had no idea what to even say. Words escaped me. For someone like myself that loves words, that was a bit hard to take. My words have even been slower to come the last couple of months, and there have been times I've considered giving up writing. Not altogether, but pretty close. My fiction is non-existent. I'm out of work again freelance wise. I've had some kicks in the writing department the last month or two that really set me into a tailspin.

I'm not saying right now this blog is entirely back, but I'm going to try. I miss it. I miss sharing things with all of you. I just didn't have much to share, and the things I did have to share weren't really all that positive. I hope you're all well out there.