22. A day of blog hopping ...

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Actually the last couple of days in my blog reading have been interesting. First of we had Silma's entry talking about her fears and writing. Sheri had an entry that bounced off of that entry of Silma's as well. I'm sure we all have our fears lurking in the back of our heads when it comes to our writing. We're not good enough. We won't sell anything. Once we do get a book contracted, it won't sell out there in stores. These are just some of the fears we face daily when it comes to writing.

I've always wanted to write. I've always loved creating characters and stories. When I was a young child, I would play house. Being an only child made this difficult, but the other people lived in my head, and I would pretend I was interacting with them. To a non-writer person, this might sound insane, and they are probably wondering why my mother didn't seek some form of therapy for me instead of encouraging this behavior. However, she did encourage it. She bought me a tape recorder, and had met tape recorder these little "scenes." We had the tapes until the 1994 earthquake hit our home, and we lost a great deal of our belongings.

I've always had those fears lurking in the back of my head though. Can I really do it? Can I make it? My father is always saying that I'm dreaming, and that I won't make it. My 12th English teacher told me I couldn't write worth a damn. That was a blow as well.

I stopped writing fiction for years. Even now I have these same fears. I'm still working on getting my writing out there. It is even a constant struggle to get any writing done on a daily basis. As Sheri mentioned in her entry if things get down or crazy, she hardly gets any writing done. I do the same. If my mood is off or things are busy with other things I get little to no writing done. It is something I'm working on getting past. I'm a non-working person due to some health issues, so I should be able to get some writing done during the day, but more often than not I don't.

I'm really working on getting better with that. I seem to be able to write in here or my reviews and other nonfiction type articles with ease. When it comes to my fiction though it is like pulling teeth. I love writing though. I love creating. Its always what I wanted to do with my life. I'm sure things will get better, but I'm the one that has to work towards making it better.

Another interesting entry caught my eye today written by Sylvia Day. If you write erotic romance and haven't read her blog today, hop on over there and take a quick look. Her entry and her thoughts about erotic romance and censorship with both publishers and authors both interested and worried me. I write erotica and romance, and I'm barely getting started. Will these blocks that seem to be coming up now have me and other writers not write erotic romance and venture into other genres? I hate censorship in any form, and this seems to be just that. I don't want to have to worry about my word usage or about what I write sex wise, but if the publishers are getting nailed for the books they are selling and some publishers are even looking into going elsewhere. That is scary.

I just want to write without myself or others getting in the way. It seems if it isn't me not writing because of this or that it will come out on the other end that there is some problem with selling or publishing when I do have a completed manuscript. Almost makes you want to rethink the writing deal, but I love writing too much to give it up.

A quick note on the review front, my review of Rob Thomas' new CD, Something to be appeared over on BlogCritics yesterday and can be found here.