282. Coming Clean

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

I love when things go as planned. When you develop some kind of routine really. You know when things happen, and when you need to do something. I may not be the most organized of people. My room is a bit of a mess. Clothes more than anything because I keep everything. I have some clothes I've probably had since my high school days in my closet somewhere. I just don't throw much out. I guess that makes me a bit of a packrat.

When it comes to getting things done, I like to know my schedule. When I add responsibilities in my life, I even like to know when I'll have time to focus on those as well. I like to fit things in, and when I know something isn't going to work I can easily take it right back out. I know sometimes things can come in and screw up your schedule, so some flexibility is always good. My family always wonders how I get anything done with the messiness of my room. I just do.

I guess I do the same process when it comes to other areas of my life. If something isn't working and I know it isn't, I figure out how to make it work. I always hear the only one that can fix you is you. Before I used to depend on people to fix me, but they never really did the job. You're the only one that can pull yourself back up when you're spread on the ground.

Sometimes I've felt that I was on a train going in circles. It was moving, but it wasn't moving forward. The people around me were all sitting there on this train with me, and all I wanted to do was get off. I got off the train about a week ago. I knew things were making me unhappy, and I knew something needed to change.

My focus is on other things now. Things kept pulling me away, forcing my focus elsewhere. I knew that couldn't keep happening. I've said this before - in life sometimes you need to make the unpopular decision in order to find your own happiness, in order to get things done. Only you can make your life work. I guess it took me a bit longer to figure out what had to be done.


Dawno said...

I can sure relate to the train analogy. I try hard to organize my life and work - but people just keep messing it up with their requests! :-)

GeminiWisdom said...

Just wanted to say hello to a fellow writer. I write YA fiction. I notice you critique a couple of my favorite shows (Supernatural and Bones...I watch Smallville as well) and I agree with you about Bones. All the day and time hopping can't be good for it and I really hope it doesn't go away soon, either. I was a HUGE fan of David's previous show, Angel, and I was so happy to see him on another series. A series where he actually SMILES. I didn't realize he had such a great smile. If I miss it, at least I know where to go to catch up.

GeminiWisdom said...

P.S. I found you on the Rent My Blog list. Couldn't afford to bid, but I wanted to drop you a line anyway. I always like to connect with other creative-minded people. Good luck with your writing.

Gina said...

Haha that is so true, Dawno!

Thanks for stopping by, Gemini! I am hoping Bones continues on, but with these constant breaks FOX isn't really do all that well promoting it.

Kelly Parra said...

So glad you figured things out, Gina!

Karen said...

Somedays all you can do is keep on going. Hang in there Gina!

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