94. Off kilter

Saturday, July 09, 2005

I guess with the whackiness of my foods the past week, events in the world this past week, and events in my own life, I am feeling a bit off kilter. I've picked up a hobby I haven't been doing for quite sometime, another writing related hobby, and i'm trying to get myself situated. I just feel off balance with my schedule. I'm so used to doing things a certain way, and this week has been anything but normal for me. I ventured out three days this week, and I can honestly I don't remember the last time I did that. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this previously in my blog, but I suffer from agoraphobia and a panic disorder. Going out is just difficult for me, so I rarely do it. Not many understand it, and some have even said I'm just plain lazy and don't want to work outside of my home. If I could I would. Although I still think writing would be my first choice.

My mood has improved, and that is a good thing. I just need to set myself back on balance in regards to my writing. It's not like I haven't been writing because I have. Just not what I feel should be working on, and that is my fiction. The stories need to get out of my head. There is so much I want to do in the next two months. My mind is spinning with all I want to do, and I'm sure I won't get it all done. It would just be impossible. There are things I have to do, and those things come first. I have several contests that I want to enter. Two of which I have stories mostly prepared for. It iis just a matter of finishing them up and sending them out.

Today, I'm watching the recast of the Live 8 concerts held last weekend. No commercials. No interrruptions by some VJ talking over the music. Just the message and the music. I really wish this is how it had been covered last weekend. I think it would have been even more powerful than it had been for those watching on television. I once again found myself tearing up.

Last night while I was waiting for something to finish on my computer, I stopped resisting the urge to pick up and start reading Guilty Pleasures. Before I realized, I had read the first two short stories. The stories so far span time. The first two taking place in 2015 and 2005 respectively. Maria Isabel Pita just amazes me. I can't wait to read more.

Have a Happy Saturday everyone.


Michelle said...

So glad you got out of the house. That's wonderful! And glad you enjoyed the stories. :)

Jill said...

I enjoyed the concerts too. Hope you have a great weekend.

Beth Ciotta said...

Sorry you're feeling off kilter, Gina. I get knocked off balance at times. Off my routine. It certainly can be unsettling. Here's to getting back on track! Feel better!

Suzanne said...

Hugs on feeling out of kilter, Gina.

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